“Beware the ecstasy of comeback. Remember that a lot of this is going to suck.” -- Bon Chovi So, I’ve spent some time reflecting on the architecture of my progression breakdown (See “Excuses for why the entire month of January went by without a single … Continue reading THE COMEBACK KID
Author: RUNNING ON ASHES
Welcome to the latest generation of RUNNING ON ASHES. When I started this blog, the ASHES were a reference to all the energy I'd burned up to then, that was behind me. Latebloomer Resurrection. Later on, it ALSO became an eerily appropriate reference to my dad passing. NOW, my mom is gone too, so it's just plain creepy. That said, I'm too lazy to change it. And I'm still here.... running on all these ashes.
WHAT HAPPENED TO DECEMBER?
Before I continue posting directly about the process of recalibrating towards The Dream, I should probably address the chasm of expression that has been the month of December. Back in November I started the blog off right—with enthusiasm and some form of consistency. Then…. So … Continue reading WHAT HAPPENED TO DECEMBER?
THE TURNAROUND: PART TWO
ALL OF THE TURNAROUND WAS PUT INTO PLAY EITHER BY DIVINE OBSERVATION OR DIVINE INTERVENTION. DIVINE OBSERVATION: ME NOTICING MY OWN PATTERNS OF BULLSHIT. I GET REVELATIONS (See Part One). SOMETIMES THEY STICK AND HELP ME MAKE SHIFTS AWAY FROM SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIORS. IT’S PRETTY COOL. … Continue reading THE TURNAROUND: PART TWO
THE TURNAROUND: PART ONE
The point at which you decide to go back to it is the point at which you realize that not doing it makes you feel more angry and alone than doing it ever did. And I’m there. Again. – at different points, 2014 – 2017 … Continue reading THE TURNAROUND: PART ONE
SABBATICAL 3: A random list of things I have done and learned in the past few years instead of doing stand up comedy
“I’m too farty to go to salsa class tonight…because I had a second lunch out nervousness..so I’ll just stay home and watch documentaries.” ---Actual Journal Entry, 2015 *Going to work *Going home *Sitting on the couch and sulking in a state of despondency because of … Continue reading SABBATICAL 3: A random list of things I have done and learned in the past few years instead of doing stand up comedy
SABBATICAL: PART 2
There’s got to be a connection between the words “sabotage” and “sabbatical”. Sabbatage? Sabo-tical? Sabbotagical. Yes. That’s it. That’s the one. “Time off is okay as long as it’s structured and has an end date.” ---Brittaney Splears “It’s good to have dreams, ideas … Continue reading SABBATICAL: PART 2
The Involuntary Sabbatical: Things to do while you’re semi-consciously uncoupling from your dreams
Spring, 2014 I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t hungry. I wasn’t having any fun. I was just feeling like a guilty useless mess with no appetite for my alleged passion. I was a deflated party balloon. On the advice of a friend, I decided to take … Continue reading The Involuntary Sabbatical: Things to do while you’re semi-consciously uncoupling from your dreams
More on Quitting: Random entries
I like to euphemise my failure sometimes. Is that healthy? Not sure, but it gets me through the funk. Instead of seeing a 3-year fallow period as idleness run amok, why can’t I just say I was in a minimalist phase with my intelligence, talent … Continue reading More on Quitting: Random entries
What Went Wrong?
Note: I’m writing this in a sort of interview style taken and given by myself (myselves?). Please pretend there are two of me for the duration of this post. The interviewer Me (ER) is straight-shooting and focused. The interviewee Me (EE) is a little less … Continue reading What Went Wrong?
Titles
Part of what goes into not launching a project is not knowing what to name it. Does the title have to reflect the inner world of the writer? Will the future prove the title to have been a clairvoyant portal into the collective psyche of … Continue reading Titles
RUNNING ON ASHES 